I want! I want too many things that keep me
from my art. I want my Broadway shows, my Roseland, my Fillmore, My Beacon
Theater, my Carnegie hall, my Lincoln Center and all the live bands on the lower
East side. I want Peter Lugar's, City Island Restaurants, Suzy's Chinese on Bleeker street;
I want Tequilla Sunrise with their 120 varieties of tequilla,
I
want the Potato Republic and I want a Two Booths slice of pizza. I want to drive
to a casino sometimes, play the slots, put some money on a roulette number, play
a few games of blackjack or Texas hold'em, roll them dice a few times and blow
the smoke of a fat cigar into my cognac snifter. I want a home that I can come
back to after getting shitfaced in some low brow dive. I want
a wife who will
understand that the pain of the world lies heavily on my shoulders and that
I
need to get blitzed once in a while so that I can forget about all of
that.
I have! What I have is bills and obligations that I have to fulfill so that I
can get a little bit of what I need and perhaps a little bit of what I want. I have
a pile of mail that needs sorting. I have some movies that I need to return to
the video store. I have 10 internet sites that need constant maintenance and TLC
that will one day allow me to be an artist and not an accountant, business man or
future entrepreneur. (Yeah right!) I have 11 guitars, (2 acoustic 6 strings, 2
acoustic 12 strings, 6 electric guitars, one bass guitar), a banjo, 3 keyboards,
2 saxophones, 2 computers with recording interfaces, an electronic drum machine,
congas, djembes, bongos, shekeres, cymbals, gongs, harmonicas, recorders, a
bugle, an accordion, a conch, and many other small instruments. I also have a
house and I have 2 cars. But I do not
have enough time! And I am running out of cash.
I wish!
I wish I could leave all these behind. I am 62 years old and there is a
possibility that I am closer to the end than I am to the beginning. I do not
have an urgent need to leave a legacy behind me; I just wish I could write a few
more songs, tell a few more tales, have a few
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